random pics.
Saturday, December 26, 2009 @ 11:07 PM

If you are wondering how my room looks like.


I lost this book. i want it back :( && wow at my bang



Thought it would be nice to share this HA

Upcoming pics: Rachels last day, river cruise and tdc@burswood.


stay tuned :)

P/S: oh and i havent called him yet. his ex told me its a 4day 3 night camp. guess i shouldnt.

pictures
@ 11:01 PM
man my blog is so boring no one reads it.

if you did you would say something on my tagboard

or else i have to put pictures. omg just go on my fb. i promise ill upload some. wait.

doesnt feel like christmas
@ 4:08 PM
HAHA i don't know why. Like i said on facebook, no turkey no salmon no party no chicken no christmas tree no nothing.

Theres no christmas atmosphere dayem.

Anyways, im at my godmother's house watching tvbs birthday on Astro on demand. What bliss.

I might be going out with Pristty tomorrow, hopefully, since nobody has been asking me :(

Oh oh oh should I call him? should i call him not? Hes at camp lah, all the way at Lahad Dato. Not sure if i should kacau him. aiyah. fustrating (HA)

btw its not Nike. Nike is just stupid as shit.

lmaolol
Friday, December 25, 2009 @ 10:01 AM
Q: What did Adam say on the day before Christmas ?
A: It's Christmas, Eve !

Merry Christmas everyone! May you all have a blessed christmas :)

maybe
Thursday, December 24, 2009 @ 11:42 AM

There is no reason why I blog. Wait, maybe there is.

I know I've been in hiatus for ages, well at least for 3 months. Its not that I'm busy, I had stuff to do. ( or maybe not)

Anyways, it was until I came to back to kk. I expected big gatherings, going out alot but , it has been 6 days and no one has been contacting me.

Except for Dylan. (haha)

The point is,

theres this one person (I'm gonna keep the name anonymous, fine lets call him/her nike) that I've been longing to see and talk to since the day I left for Perth. When I reached kk, the first thing I did was get a new Digi number and called nike. Nike answered and reacted, quite the way I wanted it to be. That was good news.

Now the bad news, somehow nike acted really weirdly the next day. I thought it was really weird for nike to be like that, even though I knew nike had a really bad day but still I called. Well you wouldn't want to know every little thing small small description have to write on a piece of cute cute paper plus a ribbon but he was just so weird.

AND THEN just then I found out (thanks to josh) nike thinks that Im annoying. crap. FML

Just to let you know I've been hated/anti-ed/whateveryouwannacallit since the age of 11. I am officially, precisely, surprisingly ....whats that word? what do you say when someone is really really really really sick and tired of living?

yes, suicidal.

Freakin hell, I feel like I have no friends, like as in someone to talk to.

Nike was suppose to be a good listener, until this happened. I had so 'much' things to talk about. Ended up, now what?

Nicole? She's too happy-go-lucky. If i cried in front of her it will be so weird, like seriously.

Liana? Well she's a good listener, but I wouldn't want to talk to people who doesn't know nike that well.

Dylan? I don't share private stuff with him.

Isaac? well i could spill everything in front of him but he sucks at comforting people. I did tell him about nike but he replied O. which annoys me alot.

Jesse + Rachel + Aussie folks? They don't even know nike. I told you i wouldnt talk to anyone about stuff if they dont know anyone thats included.

Other people? they are all included here. and 90% of them hates me, even they give you a nice smile in front of you, all you do is smile back knowing that inside they hate you alot, and i mean alot.

I've been planning to , incase you dont know, I've changed alot since ive migrated to perth. Telling my old friends that ive changed is a really hard thing. When they see you they'll still think that you are that hidung-tinggi-son-of-a-bitch-always-so-lazy-dont-do-homework-always-think-shes-right-girl but then.. they still treat you as if youve never changed.

Ive told nike before. Wasn't sure if he/she trusted me but im pretty sure he/she did. Or maybe I didn't and now he/she is avoiding me.


Kay i think this is enough.

The point is, i feel suicidal, without wanting to suicide, i mean, haven't you tried feeling like you don't wanna live, without wanting to hang yourself?

peace to all

xxcamilla